i'm falling behind on my reading goal according to goodreads. i finished two so far. should be at four. i have a good list of ones to read tho, so it's not so much a shortage of material

i spent most of yesterday in the community darkroom developing and scanning. i never want to scan again. i did both flatbed and dslr. flatbed is so slow, which, if you do it on a per roll basis, may be good enough. but since i had a huge backlog, it was too slow. supplemented it with dslr scanning, which seems to go by faster, until you remember you have to do a lot of the work in photoshop to invert and correct them. both are rather tedious. i suppose if i bought negative lab pro, dslr scanning would be easier. woudl give better flatbed results too, but honestly, seems like i should just leave it to the lab. if i'm really worried about savign moeny, i can develop myself and drop off for scans. i also attempted prints in the darkroom, but none came out how i would've liked. all too gray. no contrast. flat. i havdn't printed in forever and i was already frustrated from the scanning. add in that i hadn't ate and was on hour five of being there, i gave up. the paper was also stuff i got at work, so didn't know any technical specs of it. was good to try prints again, generally speaking. hadn't done that since i made some for areli's birthday. which was last june

writing on here cause i need a break from the photoshop process and cause i've meant to for a while but kept neglecting it

was seeing the word 'limerence' a lot last week. it felt apt to my then current headspace, but i think something has shifted. at least i hope something has shifted. i'm more relaxed again

making vague plans to visit new orleans again. haven't been since 2017 when i went to go see a um friend who was also visiiting, but from conneticut

i made a list of resolutions in a post on the forum i frequent. thought about updating where im at with that on there, but figured i can do it here. i'm not closer to getting a real job. had an interview, didnt get it, and gave up for a few weeks. need to get back to that. i'm behind on redeaing, but i'm still reading. so progress. i have worked on more photo ideas. it just takes time. also need to find a better way to take double exposure photos. haven't touched the bass guitar yet. have written more (only whats on this blog though). maybe if i take the bus more i will have time to jot down line ideas for poems or something. i am more social when going out now. at least, in comparison. have initiated more conversations. have met new people. its exhausting but it's being done. made kimchi last week, so expanding my cooking is also progressing. no idea for a 'big' trip yet. had considered barcelona but things change. aforementioned new orleans and a potential ride to austin are all i have on the docket rn. tho there is someone that recently took a bike like mine across several states (texas, luisiana, new mexico, etc.) so gonna read that write-up and maybe get inspired