stalked some online frind of a friend's ig and now im feeling a bit inspired to pursue art projects again. going to capitalize on this feeling by ordering a bunch of stuff i need for these experiments but have put off a lot

generally feels like, while I'm still in my bucket, I have found a rhythm. I'm gonna try to use that to work on some projects before the year ends. photo related but may venture into other mediums. I'm also spending more money on coffee stuff, vinyl records, etc. feels weird to finally have some dispodsable income for this stuff. have to remind myself to not get too crazy and overspend. so I will cut myself off agter these purchases (coffee grinder, kitchen scale, color filters, nd filter, film, toy camera) until i force myself to use them all

my hand, it feels tingly. my right hand. obviously it's from work related constant motions, but i wish it would go away

went on a dumb, bender-adjacent binge this weekend. i went to work every day, so not a true bender, but i spent way too much money on drinks and gewtting drunk every night. threw some ketamine in while at some dj/queer event in some gross warehouse. gave some friends bumps so it's not like im selfish ! but then the next day i did blow in a bar bathroom... felt depressed monday, which i attribute to flushing the weekend out of my system. that's fine. but i have to be cognisant to not let that become habit. maybe thats why my mind is pushing me towards art again...

i was supposed to do a small shoot yesterday, someone else's idea, but she didn't reply to my last messages so I guess that's not happening for some time